So I am not sure what happened in Pittsburgh, there was a huge transformation that took place that I really can't explain. I suppose leaving on a whim to a frozen city in the dead of winter and not knowing anybody at all can do that to a person. But each day I am in CA, I thank god that I took that step and have no regrets about doing it. I look back with fond memories of some great people I met in such a beautiful city, but all of that does not compare to what happened to me internally and my new outlook on life.I used to be a shy, insecure young adult who was worried more about what people thought then what I thought. Why do we worry so much about such petty stuff. Why is it that we worry more about wearing the wrong shirt out then sometimes anything else. I did start to gain some confidence in college, running without a shirt on (may seem pretty small to most people who read this) was the start of it all maybe. When you have something wrong that most people notice, they tend to gravitate towards that first. So as a child growing up I would swim/run/pretty much everything and anything I did with a shirt on. I guess the self consciousness in all of us tends to take over our lives at some point as we try to blend into certain groups in HS and College, we pick sides more or less and that is where we stay sometimes even taking that thought process into our adult lives.
Well moving 3,000 miles away from anybody you know will def. make you grow up faster. you have to fend for yourself and do everything pretty much on your own. There is really nobody there to help you and when I found myself getting off a plane in the dark of winter with two suitcases I realized I better grow up fast. And grow up I feel I have as I now have a huge confidence boost and a new outlook on life. No more worrying about the small stuff in life, I used to work 60+ hours a week in various jobs I have held over the years. For what? you get the piad the same as if you worked 40 and the only person you are hurting is yourself. Life is just to short and precious to be worrying about work all day. Believe or not but you are not living if you are working all the time and suddenly have no time for friends or family.
On the flip side of that coin, no longer can you worry about what others think of you, as hard as that might be. You are who you are and nobody but yourself can change that. Plus why would you want to change? You can't change others and they for sure can't change you. I no longer carry this burden of what people might think about this or that and because of this new found feeling I feel that I am happier and very much more optimistic about the future. Life is really what we make it out to be, only we change the course we take. I have come to terms with this and have planned out my life or at least put it on the pat I wish to take to make it better. I am a simple person who likes the simple things in life. I am very optimistic, sincere and a all around great guy. This is who I am, either you like me or you don't but I can't worry about that anymore as I can't change who I am and I am proud now, more so then ever to be who I am.
With that all being said, all I want to convey is that you need to live the life you want and never settle because someone told you that it might be a good idea. Only you can make that decision and you need to live with the outcome. I now for 100% sure have the idea of what I am looking for in a mate, the plans to succeed in my life, even though I am off to a rocky start and most importantly I have the confidence to make my life what I want it to be. The end has not been written yet and there are still plenty of chapters to write about.
"Faster, Higher, Stronger" YOUR LIFE IS ONLY AS GOOD AS YOU MAKE IT OUT TO BE!!
