Friday, July 17, 2009

Chapter 14 - Stability

















When you look at the above pictures you can not help but look at the true beauty of this place. I am not really a religious person but on my trip in July to Arizona, we stopped by this church out in the middle of the now where south of Tucson and I could not help but feel something about this place. It was very inspiring and impressive at the same time. I just felt this connection that honestly I have never felt before. Something about a little white church with wooden pews and grand architecture that really brought out the charm.

When you look at this place, you can't help but notice that A: it has been around for a very long time and B: it apears that it is not going anywhere anytime soon. It is in essence a very stable place that is still used to this day as a working church that has brought a whole small community together. It is this stability that I wish to talk about because twice now I have been told in so many words that I am not stable. Yes I have moved around in the last 5 years, maybe 6 or some could say ever since I left HS. Yet in those times of moving, I have managed to take care of others, putting them on my backs and carrying them as much as I could. I have moved some of those times to make life better for those around me. Yet they may have never understood that and I am sure I did not explain it well enough at the time but two of my moves have been not for myself but for those around me. I was given the opportunity to make our lives better and I took the higher road, for reasons things have not worked out but I can't look back at that anymore. We have all made choices that I am sure we wish we could change, but I really believe that every choice we make takes us to where we are today.

We will never know why things happen they way they do, but just because one person moves around, does not mean they are unstable. Yes I may not know what I really want, I may have taken risks that may or may not have panned out the way I wanted but that is why I keep going. And perhaps taking risks in life is why I move and try new things, if we don't try new things we or NEW PLACES , we may never know if we like them or not. Some things work out for the best while others don't pan out the way we wish they would. That is life, all we can do is pick up and move on..........